I got a Pocket full of sunshine

I got a pocket full of sunshine, i got a love and i know that it is all mine...!!!!!!!!!

Ok dont come to conclusion for the above mentioned line, though it describes most of my feelings yet would request to read between the lines..!!!!! Navratra and Dussera was more than just great. Though i was bored, as exams were over and had nothing to do. Though i was looking out for a job (cause i hate spending time just doing nothing, though i joined gym to occupy some of time, yet i had loads of free time) but then i wasnt getting any good offers. The second day of navratra, Had a party at one of my friends place, which i enjoyed a lot and had my first night out. And then week was going good and easy, though had some personal problems at my place with my parents, and then i had my sister to help me out of it. But then though i was no where to be blamed, my Mom's reaction to the incident was natural and i do understand that, so i kept my week slow and didnt do anything which would make matters worse.

And then i got a call from this company which is very well known and renowned, internationally and its base in Pune is also quite famous. So went for the interview. The only sad part is, its near to Very Famous, Yerawada Jail, where famous personalities were kept and also Yerawada Mental Hospital. Yeah, i know, first reaction would be "Oh shit..!!!!" and then you will be ROFLing. But then like any other good company, Infrastructure is really good and once you are inside, the ambiance and interiors, makes u forget about the surroundings. So i went for the interview, And HR explained me about the company and various processes that they have, he explained me about the company and the work. After my first round of interviews, i was scheduled for Ops round for sales process, and it was Bad, Very Bad...!!!!! When i saw the guy, he introduced himself, he was the Ops Manager. He was cute, Yeah, that was the first thought that came to my mind and for a moment i smiled on myself and i didnt realize that he had greeted me good afternoon, and then when he said it second time, with a bit raised voice to get my attention, i just got back to reality and said HI. It was very embarrassing, as it was the very first impression. And then he just kept on asking questions, and before i could complete my answer, he used to ask another question, that too a different question which had nothing to do with his earlier question and nothing to do with,what i was answering. I really felt awkward as i wasnt able to answer anything properly, cause he was not letting me speak.And this went on for more than 40 mins. By the time i came out of the room, i was blank for a moment and then i waited for the result.

As it had to be, he reffered me to other process as he thought i got nervous when he tried to pressurise me. And then again i was ready to face another round of interview, HR came and told me about the new process and what its all about. And then again Sr. Manager from Ops came and took the interview and this one went really good. It was just for 10 mins. and i was glad that i faced the interview quite well. And as expected i got selected for technical desk as a Customer Relations Adviser. So the next part was salary, though i had good amount of experience, but not being a Graduate, i wasnt expecting much of a hike from what i used to be paid from my previous organisation. But then it was a pleasent surprise for getting a hike of more than a Lakh Rupees in your annual package, that too excluding your incentives. I couldnt say no to such a lucrative Offer. And then as i got to know about the Company, feeling proud to be a part of it.

My Parents were very much Happy and so were my uncle's and aunt's proud of me. And then on saturday, a day before dussera, Inaayat with his friends decided to go to a Pub, though i was not sure taking into consideration my mom wont allow me, first i said no.But then didnt wanna loose a chance for one more late night outs with my latest crush, He's a cutie and thats what i am gonna call him in my blog. So somehow i convinced my mom and i went out with them. Along with shiv and cutie, there was one more friend of his, who looked just like Anuj. For a moment i did think that its Anuj, and i did tell him that he resembled one of my friend. But then hard luck, cause the pub didnt allow stags, on weekends they allowed only the members and couples. Though i soo wanted to call up my uncle and use his influence to get in the Pub, but then thought if my uncle knew i was visiting a pub so late night, Not just my Mom but he will also take my case!!!! So we decided to go to a dhaba, cause it was very late at night and none of the restaurants were open. But then the Dhaba was also great, it was no where like a fancy resturant but then having a dinner at Dhaba is itself a great experience. And all of them were drunk except me. Due to Navratri i didnt wanna indulge myself into drinking (though i dont drink or smoke, i dont even eat Non-Veg). And then as you would expect,everyone was talking about something which was senseless, but i enjoyed it as everyone was talking whatever they felt and they were being honest. Cutie dropped me home and i enjoyed the ride a lot, with him.

And after so many good incidents, Dussera was just amazing. Whatever of my savings were left of my earlier salary, i bought gold ornament for my Mom on eve of dussera. Though she was reluctant of me spending the amount, i knew how much she desired to invest in gold, before the prices further shoot high..!!!!! so fullfilled her wish.
Yes, i have started my job and enjoying it thouroughly. Will post more about it. Till then.....

I got a Pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine, 
I got a love and i know that it is all mine,
Do what you want but you're never gonna break me,
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me......!!!

The dark side of your bright life

I am going through a turmoil of emotions right now. Am Happy, Am Glad, Am Satisfied yet i feel somewhat lonely, somewhat lost and somewhat Fearful of loosing something, and yet i dont know what that something is..And yet if i think its the same thing that i am thinking about, its never been mine so how would it matter, i mean something which was never with you, how can you loose it!!!!

I know that its nothing but some random thoughts that are running through my head, but then i do have my own reasons and conceptions to back them up with. Some things are worth experiencing and realising, but then sometimes one of the experience takes you over and you dont realize that you have been flown away from rational reality. I am a very emotional person, but then some of the past experiences have made me so practical that i didnt realize that i am being pessimist and think so negatively about someone or in that matter everyone. Its something that i realized when i was speaking with my friend and making him realize that he's running after a mirage(his crush or his so called "un-attainable love") and he needs to get a hold of himself, cause i had a long Black list of that guy, About his behavior and thinking and no ways could i think beyond his negativity's. But then whatever my friend said about him was making me realize that the other person does care about him, but then somehow i wasnt able to accept it. And then he did tell me that he knows that his feelings will never be reciprocated but then the guys attention and care is enough for him. And thats when i realized that how much i have changed and i was afraid of myself. The change that I had been so Proud of something due to which i was able to achieve so many things in my life, My job, my promotion, my friends.....though i know it all happened over a period of time, but i never saw or gave a thought about the dark side of it.

And then i got back to my very own routine. Hanging out with friends, visiting Open Space for screening of a movie(which was good, nice food for thought...!!!) and then Shaan invited me to a get together party with his friends, which was great fun and i really had a great time, after all, it was my first night, out of my house.I slept for entire day and then went through my dairy which i used to write when i was in 12th, thats about 4 years ago and i got to know so much about myself and then, certain recent incidents, just added to my recent storm of emotions.

Nagumomo

For past few months i've been so engrossed and attracted by two major characters of religious history. First being Sita and second Saint Mirabai. Why, when and how will be discussed in a different post, but then i came upon this amazing telugu songs, which was background score in one of a movie. I found the song and heard them as well, tough i couldnt find one of them on youtube, i downloaded it directly, but you can listen the other one over here. Though i dont understand telugu, i liked the songs and  searched for the meaning and i found it. And once i got to know the meaning i found the lyrics quite interesting. So posting the meaning of the lyrics ova here.

The first song is Nagumomo :

Invisible, smiling face
Knowing my sorrow
Won’t you protect me?

You who lifted the Govardhana Hill
Your councilors cannot fail
To remind you of your duty to me

Could the King of Birds
Who obeys your every command
Refuse to bring you to me?
Might he say, ‘the earth where you live
Is too far from the sky’?

You are a great soul
Whose comfort and protection
Offer solace to the universe
To whom else can I voice my unhappiness?
I can’t bear your tricks
Come to me

And the second song is O Rama :

Lover of Lakshmi
Scion of the Solar Dynasty
I can’t bear this separation
Your lotus eyes instill in me
Belief that penetrates the depths of my heart
And yet you treat me as a stranger
Have you no place for those
Who have mastered the body
And fully realized themselves?

I shall walk ahead
And you will follow
I shall walk ahead
And I love you all
Rest easy now, my child
Rest easy, I know you
The praise you gave
That my eyes were like flowers
Rest easy now, my child 

Happy Navratri

One thing i like about India is its array of festivals, And the best part is you dont just get to enjoy your religions festivals but also other religions festival as well.

When Shravan Month starts thats when all the excitement starts to gather, Dahi-Handi, Ganpati, Navratri, Ramzan, Diwali and Christmas, all come after a very short gap. So its like 5 months festivity!!!!!

You'll get to read about the upcoming festivals in days to come, but then first of all Happy Navratri to all. As name suggets its a festival that goes on for 9 (nav) Days or nights(ratri).Navratri, the festival of nights, lasts for 9 days with three days each devoted to worship of Ma Durga, the Goddess of Valor, Ma Lakshmi, the Goddess of Wealth and Ma Saraswati, the Goddess of Knowledge. Durga Puja is a carnival, where people from all backgrounds , regardless of their religious beliefs, participate and enjoy themselves. During the nine days of Navratri, feasting and fasting take precedence over all normal daily activities amongst the Hindus. Evenings give rise to the religious dance Garba in order to worship Goddess Durga Maa.

I have many good memories which still make me laugh at myself and miss those old days when we used to play dandiyas. I'll write about it in my next post. As of now bask in the festive mood and blessings during this festival.

Beginning

Ahhh...Uhmmm... well am lost as to what to write?

But there has to be a start, a new beginning. For me a new beginning is never hard, its the afterwards. I have always said that I have been lucky enough and God has always been good with me that i have always been at right place, at right time and with right people. But then as time passed few of them have remained just as part of my memories. So am still contemplating about writing this blog, whether i would be able to continue it for much longer. But then, i also dont know the answer for this, so theres only one way to know it... I start it and then lets see how long do i keep it.

As one of my fav song by my fav singer goes..."Make a wish, take a chance, Make a change and BREAKAWAY......"

 

So here goes. Shree Ganesha of my Blog.....
Cheers..!!!!